waiting, and waiting some more
May. 20th, 2009 06:13 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
allegraconbrioMom is at the oncologist right now. I am waiting here at their house.
She was nervous before she left, and as I am the crier in family she was totally stoic. And we all know that this visit is not the biggie, the biopsy is the important procedure that comes next. She told me this afternoon that she missed shopping and that she thought that this might be the end and that it was such a shame to waste such a beautiful day being inside and in pain.
Her telling me that kind of killed me. And yep, I cried after she left.
I do not know what to do with myself. I've been catching up with the "Deadliest Catch" which has also made me cry. As does just about everything right now. I have not ever eaten crab and I don't know why this show is so compelling, is it Mike Rowe's narration? Is it the guys on the sea vs. the elements? Or is it just that I really like the ocean and although I know I could never be a fisherman I just like the whole ocean thing? And why does it make me cry?
Oy.
Of the good? "Glee" the new show that premiered last night on Fox made me cry in that good way, as in I like this and I could keep watching this and I am so a dork because a show about a show choir is so destined to fail and yet I liked it and I will wave my dork flag. *waves*
also, AI finale tonight. And for the first time ever I really don't care who wins. I am just completely in awe of Adam Lambert. The guy will hopefully have an awesome career. And Kris, I like him just fine. I will listen to him when I want to just sit back and be mellow.
She was nervous before she left, and as I am the crier in family she was totally stoic. And we all know that this visit is not the biggie, the biopsy is the important procedure that comes next. She told me this afternoon that she missed shopping and that she thought that this might be the end and that it was such a shame to waste such a beautiful day being inside and in pain.
Her telling me that kind of killed me. And yep, I cried after she left.
I do not know what to do with myself. I've been catching up with the "Deadliest Catch" which has also made me cry. As does just about everything right now. I have not ever eaten crab and I don't know why this show is so compelling, is it Mike Rowe's narration? Is it the guys on the sea vs. the elements? Or is it just that I really like the ocean and although I know I could never be a fisherman I just like the whole ocean thing? And why does it make me cry?
Oy.
Of the good? "Glee" the new show that premiered last night on Fox made me cry in that good way, as in I like this and I could keep watching this and I am so a dork because a show about a show choir is so destined to fail and yet I liked it and I will wave my dork flag. *waves*
also, AI finale tonight. And for the first time ever I really don't care who wins. I am just completely in awe of Adam Lambert. The guy will hopefully have an awesome career. And Kris, I like him just fine. I will listen to him when I want to just sit back and be mellow.
